Monday, March 31, 2008

Oh, what a day...

Today was one of those days - you know the ones where nothing goes right?? The kind where I makes me question if I'm following the right path for my life and doing what's best for my family- especially my children.

I won't go into all the details, but by 11:00, I had cleaned up throw up from 2 different children (only one of which was mine) and had been peed on (by my preschooler!!!). It really didn't get much better from there. I was tired and grumpy and much, much less patient with my children than I should have been. I was beginning to question my decision to stay home to raise my children instead of working and sending them to daycare like so many woman do.

By dinner I was so grumpy (which was less from my children's behavior & more from my reaction to it). That I told the girls we were all going to be early tonight. I had felt small and defeated and very tired. They didn't argue, we were eating late, and they were tired and grumpy and one of them was not feeling well.

After dinner, we picked up toys, played quietly for a few minutes and went up to brush our teeth. I was dreading this part because my youngest does not like to have her teeth brushed, and it is a daily battle - daily because it's something too important to just let go, and because she just gives us such a hard time.

Just as I was expecting the worst, my children surprised me. They listened to mommy's very tired voice the first time, with NO arguments. Teeth-brushing had not been this easy in a very long, long time. She even let me floss them, which was AMAZING!!! I decided to let them cuddle in my bed with me and watch the "dancing show". They love dancing with the stars. We cuddled up and snuggled in. DD1 (who was the sick one today) fell asleep a half hour in. DD2 stayed up much later than she should have, but I was just enjoying that time with her and let her stay up a bit later (she did take an unexpected 2 hour nap today).

After she went to bed, I went to the team blog to check out the post today, and was SMACKED in the face with an article that must have been written for me. It made me think about my priorities (my children), my commitments, and the path that I am on. I am just having a bad day, we all have them now and then. I'm happy being a SAHM and being the one that always gets to take care of my children when they are sick or hurt, or mad or happy. I GET all of the kisses and hugs and "I love you mommy" 's. Yes, sometimes I get peed on, have to clean up really gross messes and break up fights, but I'd have that if I worked someplace else too.

I am thankful for the opportunity to stay home. I am thankful that my husband supports that (both financially and emotionally). I'm willing to make the sacrifices that we need to do that - cable, fancy cell phones & I-pods, designer clothes, a new couch - well maybe not that last one - mine is really, really bad! :-)

I am thankful to Heather for writing this article to help me put my focus on my children, and still realize that it's OK to need time for me - it's finding that balance that's important. I know that search is constant. Here is the article that Heather wrote, read it - it's interesting, and applies to so much more than just scrapbooking.

If you made it to the end of this post - thanks so much for listening to me ramble!! I wish that I had a little freebie or a list to give you, but I am tired and am setting a boundary (for this tonight). So check my side bar for my older freebies or click over to my designs blog here, or the ScrapMatters shop for a few freebies.

Good night :-)

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Heart Attack!

Okay, I almost just had a heart attack! I just went to download those yummy inked crumpled paper edges that Jessica so kindly emailed me about, and when I hit the save button and TRIED to navigate to my downloads folder, I couldn't find it! Instant panic set in. I've been collecting goodies for years - there are almost 16 gigs here my friends. So now I'm on the verge of tears - where oh where could they be?

I check my recycle bin, open Picassa, still can't find it. Run a search in explorer, still no luck. I remember that yesterday my DD1 jumped on my PC while I threw in some wash... oh no, she must have, she could have, did she DELETE ALL MY SCRAPPING FREEBIE KITS????? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Well, after about 5 minutes later, I found that she had somehow managed to move the folder in to a folder that I use for templates! It's still here!! HOORAY!!!! I've got my freebies, and my daughter will live! Ok, some drama here, but you can bet she will be getting a talking to about using mommy's computer!!!!

Sigh, relief, joy, laughing at how silly I am to be so effected by this - after all they are just things, and I think if had lost it all, and I asked pretty please I might get a few folks sending me a link or two to some pretty scrapping things they've got for free up on their bloggies! :-)

Thanks for listening to me - I think one or 2 of you might be able to relate to this :-)

LO Share & a freebies list :-)

I can't believe how infrequently I have been posting. I LOVE doing the freebies list, but there seems to be less and less time for it. I am going to try hard to work on it though. :-) You'll forgive me right???

I did scrap a page the other day - I love these pictures I took of my girls helping to make Easter cookies, and couldn't wait to scrap them! Krista hosted a challenge at scrapmatters that encouraged me to do just that!

"Recipe for Spring Challenge" - Easter Cookies @
Border & Background Paper: Flergs / Sunshine Sweets - Easter Freebie
Green Paper (on Frames): Rachel Clark - My Girl Kit
(following available at
Alpha - Brittish Designs - Marilyn
Template - Paparazzi Template - Happy Scrap Girl Designs
Ribbon - Brittish Designs - Wrappiness

Here is your freebies list - it's a good one - some yummy treats tonight :-)

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Freebies List!